10:20 am  -   June 17, 2011   -   3 notes  

Anonymous asked: OHHH, and please don't feel the need to do 50 crunches for this message, or that last one I just sent lol

haha, i’m doing them :p

  2:10 pm  -   June 16, 2011  

Anonymous asked: So...how long have you suffered from an eating disorder? Do you consider it "suffering", if you do? How does doing this to yourself make you feel- do you like it, hate it, want to recover, or are you just simply trying to lose weight???
I have an eating disorder and I have a love/hate relationship with it, I hate the way I feel about myself but I revel in it because it means my self-hate makes me lose more weight...but I'd still give anything NOT to have this cunt inside my head telling me I'm too fat and I can't eat, and if I do I'm just a huge piece of shit...I'd give anything to be normal again, you know?

i don’t have an eating disorder.

  2:10 pm  -   June 16, 2011  

  1:50 pm  -   June 16, 2011   -   2 notes  

  1:44 pm  -   June 16, 2011   -   1 note  

i went to this barbeque party at my friend’s that she “hosted” for her class as a little “finally summer vacation” thing. all her classmates and two of the teachers where there. and me. i wasn’t planning on staying there for long, because i wasn’t really supposed to come, i felt like i was crashing their class-party or something. anyway, i was walking around drinking my water and talking to people. and i was freezing. even though i was wearing warm socks, sweatpants, a long sleeve shirt and a wind jacket. so then i decited that i should go home so i could put on some warmer clothes and hide under a blanket. then one of the teachers came over to where i was standing.

teacher: did you bring any food?
me: no.
teacher: i brought a ton of sausages, you can have one if you like.
me: no thanks, i don’t eat.
(long silence)
me: MEAT. i don’t eat meat. and i have to go now, thanks anyways.

geeze, that was embarrassing in so many ways. i do eat, but it was only 3 hours since i ate two apples so i wasn’t hungry anyways. and i don’t eat meat, and that’s what i was supposed to say at first i just forgot the “meat” part.

i feel stupid.

  1:37 pm  -   June 16, 2011   -   1 note  

  11:26 am  -   June 16, 2011   -   7 notes  

2 green apples, 147 calories.

  10:02 am  -   June 16, 2011   -   2 notes  

  8:39 am  -   June 16, 2011   -   3 notes  

i’m sorry i havn’t been on in forever! but i’m back now, and i’m here to stay! :)

  11:23 pm  -   June 15, 2011